Yesterday, I had another nightmare about me as a mangaka...!!

Let me tell you about the first one, which I had few weeks ago...

I remember it was a night time, standing in front of a white rectanguler building.

I got in, and there was only one room with a female editor sitting on her desk.

I handed to her my manga series manuscripts and asked her if her company will publish it.

While she was reading it, she bursted out laughing!! But she was not laughing like after seeing a joke, no...

She was laughing at MY entire work like she was MAKING FUN AT ME AND MY SERIES!

The last thing I remember, is walking slowly outside the room/buliding, and I kept hearing her laughing out loud like crazy!!

I woke up, and to tell you the truth... my spirit was shattered big time for days and didn't draw anything new!!

But I got over it, and things went normal... until last night...!!

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I had another nightmare!!

This time, I was with a man, and talked with him more about my series.

But, he told me that he WON't publish my manga, because HE says so!!

I argued with him alot, but the guy was stubborn as a mule!!

And then, I had enough with him and left the place full of anger.

The last thing I remember, is sitting in a dark appartment-like room, sitting in front of a computer, and that's it.


God... I hate having mental nightmares that breaks your spirit and self-esteem!!